Welcome to my blog Upstate Girl, (a.k.a Follow Your Bliss Part II), I am an independently published author. This blog is all about writing and the stuff that inspires me to write, the joys and obstacles that come along with the writer's life, and my fascination with the psychology of people and what makes them tick...the human condition, as is...and my love for words, playing with them and making sense of them...and I throw in a few photos from my acre of the world just to make things pretty...sometimes there are things I have no words for, only pictures will do.

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Sunday, September 6, 2009

The webs we weave...

It really startles me sometimes...reading what I've written...I'm in the final throes of editing my manuscript The Fractured Hues of White Light...the immersion into this story throughout this spring and summer has been rewarding...a trial at times...trying my patience...just when doubts start to creep in, I settle in to read it and the doubts flit away...yes, yes, this is right, change this word to that, cut this sentence, move it here, don't forget to say this because it is important to what happens later...

...chapter 3...oh that blasted chapter 3! Chapter 3...I think I spent a full month of time working within a love hate relationship in that troublesome chapter 3...more love than hate really, not really hate...no, no, it's all love in this ordeal of writing...I certainly wouldn't do it if I hated anything about it...it's impatience with myself because I'm so dang fussy putting words into the characters mouths and deep into their being...my words, but really their words...I sometimes cringe when my characters do something that isn't right, but there wouldn't be a story if they were right all the time...
...a character going through a painfully personal wringer...he's perfectly imperfect, ya gotta love him...and then shake your head...the poor soul...
...the craft of words...did I do that? When? HOW? Yeah, I really wrote that...it just kinda fell into place without much of a plan...they sneak up and surprise you, suddenly there...

...verbal flailing around, making shit up as I go along...I zigged when I should've zagged, but somehow it works...it's just what happens...shit happens...the characters become tangled, the story sticks to itself in places, all precarious threads held together by a whim...a web...all so fragile, yet so powerful...I'm terrified at times, but oh so happy to be a writer...spilling my thoughts...my guts...out for years onto the keyboard, eventually to paper, and finally to a perfect bound book...

4 comments:

Laura J. Wellner (author pseudonym Laura J. W. Ryan) said...

Great Scott, I saw the spider that made that web on my mud room door...eeeeuuuwwww, it's big! I will leave it alone...it will leave me alone...right?

Caio Fernandes said...

hi Laura , it was a real pleasure to discover your blog today .
i realy like your way to see life around you .
the images are beautifull too .
thanks .
see you !!

Pat said...

Love the symbolism here between your story and the the throes of getting it correct. Can Laura get herself out of the web she has woven and got herself stuck in? Tune in next week.........

Maggie Neale said...

Hi Laura, love the web images and the woven words. I'm intrigued by the preview of this book. How did you happen upon my site?